Growing up, the notion of a child like faith was often praised. I thought it was odd and irresponsible, even as a child. Those who know me would say that is so me. I have often thought and over thought much of life. I didn’t doubt faith as a child, yet I thought it was something to be studied and not taken lightly.
Oh today I long for the faith of my childhood. I wanted answers, yet I didn’t feel the answers would lead to disbelief. I felt it would lead to understanding. In my studying and struggle of adulthood, I have found more questions. Lately those questions have been clouded with the darkness of unbelief. I WANT to believe. I want the mysterious peace at passes all understanding. The loss of faith saddens me.
Response to Child Like Faith
Lynnea, I know where you’re coming from. I often feel like if I were to label myself I’d say I’m an “agnostic Christian”. I don’t know how so many of my Christian friends can believe everything their church teaches without seeming to waver. I know you also have some of those friends who seem so very faithful–to us blindly faithful. And sometimes I envy that even though I can’t imagine being that way myself.